Valentine's Day

So Valentine's Day has come and passed. I have seen 25 days and not 1 time have I ever been in a relationship on this day. Sometimes I find that is quite an amazing streak because I have had several girlfriends but obviously none of these relationships have lasted more than a year so I have never been able to experience the true essence of the day. I am somewhat intrigued with what the day would actually feel like depending on how significant the relationship was.

The only involvement I had at Valentine's Day was when I was in high school and there was a girl that I had a crush on. I went to a flower store and bought an arrangement of flowers and decided that I would give them to the girl and ask her to a Valentine's Day dance that our school was having. The problem was that I was a really shy kid and was really bad with facing rejection. A couple days after I had bought the flowers the dance got cancelled and I never had the guts to give the girl the flowers or ask her out. The flowers ended up wilting away in room and my mom eventually found them at the start of March and asked me what they were for. I think I came up with the worst lie in the World and told her that they were for myself but she obviously didn't believe that but I think she knew I was embarassed so she didn't press the issue.

So with my one remotely related Valentine's Day experience I am really torn on what to think of the day. I think that I really hate Valentine's Day because I hate the fact that people need to be told that they love someone. If you are truly in love then you shouldn't need a day telling you that. Also, on certain occassions it reminds me that I am single and there have been points in my life where I don't like that fact because it usually means that I haven't had any sexual activity for a prolonged period of time and being reminded of that sucks. Having said that, I really love being single most of the time. I love the freedom of doing whatever I want whenenver I want. I'm not saying that couples can't do this but I believe that there are intrinsic obligations that couples have to each other to do lots of things. Such as family events or special events for their "significant other". I also want to experience Valentine's Day for what it is. I do not know if I have really ever loved someone but if I am one day able to devote an entire 24 hours to showing my love for that person (and vice-versa) then I will think that it will be my favorite day but only if it is genuine and not forced.